thoughts

seems to have a lot of those these days....thoughts



wanted to write it down before i forget them again








kinda amazing
how people can influence u with the slightest of contact
how many times have u looked at urself and remembered the exact person who influenced u to that particular trait?

kinda amazing isnt it
if u bothered to list out all of such experiences
kinda makes u wonder who u really are actually
just an amalgm of people and personality who u have met in ur life?
but if u tink of it the other way
its not that you arent original
its juz amazing how people can touch ur life
and change it in the smallest way with the tiniest touch

and all these just add up
until u become finally who u are today





all these thoughts started running in my head
when i was using my highlighter
hah.
i wasnt a highlighter kind of person before
and it makes me wonder if i would still be using one today
if i hadnt met a certain person


never fails to make me wonder every time, everytime i use the highlighter

she was very dear to me once
wonder if she really knew how she had influenced me in so mani small little ways



people who entered ur life for the brief-iest of moments
would have inadvertantly influenced u, affected u
touched ur life in ways u never imagined possible



its also kinda scary in a way




who would you be now, if u hadn't met these people?

dun u feel like there's juz this grand scheme
that we are all a small part of it





to be swept away in the grandeur of it all

interesting isnt it

people that never fail to surprise u with a side of them you have never see before





why are ppl always so guarded?




as in realli, why?

when did the turning point come?

when we were all young and innocent
i m sure we expressed freely whatever we felt
and do whatever we felt like doing



its almost as if someone fed us a forbidden fruit from the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil

all of a sudden
we juz felt exposed and then start building the walls around ourselves


ever wondered why most ppl considered sec sch friends the best friends they ever had
and probably the closest friends they will ever have?


maybe its coz those walls werent well-built yet
people managed to squeeze thru the cracks
and touched ur heart, ur soul
and suddenly u realise, maybe it aint that bad after all

and then that one touch
begun a bond which will never ever break


and den as u get older
as u begun to start mastering the self that u were born with
the walls juz became higher and stronger
ur able to control ur emotions better
to put up a show so convincing that everyone's fooled



almost no one will be ever to break thru that facade
those barriers





almost, becoz in the end, there will always be people that u can't help
but allow into ur innermost cloister




friends who u wished u had met earlier
u know like how there is THE ONE girl/guy who's meant for everyone

i tink there are also friends like that
haha
friends to grow old with (not the romantic kind haha)
friends to laugh with
friends to share your joys and sorrow
friends who will be there simply coz u nid it, whether u asked or not



i tink the only way to describe it is

realli

just blessed.
by God, no less =)

hahah

hahah the song that we discovered while looking for another



RYAN CABRERA

"True"

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

puffy eyes

could never understand how eyes could become puffy and swollen after crying






until i experienced it for myself.



eyes swollen half-shut today
no matter how hard i try to wash my face
it wont reopen
and it hurts like f.


ate reunion dinner with puffy eyes

i tink my mom knows
and i realli appreciate it that she din ask any weird qns




lots of battles ahead


i must learn to deal with it.

Those Puffy Eyes.

threadless tshirt

A CHOICE YOU NEED TO MAKE






the caption for the shirt is supposed to be
"A choice you need to make"



i will always be waiting around the corner for you la

this shirt really describes how it feels like man




the potential is really there man





and i will always be waiting, juz around the corner.
not too far away.

this is juz too damn funny

hahahahahahahah wtf.

MILFs and Necrophillia

haahahahahahahah

Death Cab for Cutie - A Lack of Color

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay










[or should it be 12.45, not 7:03]


hah.

and the GMILFs that we always tok about

hahahaa.

for the only other ANTI-Trends person i know

you know who i m referring to

ur the only other person i know who is AnTi-TreNDs





maybe we are both republicans

hah.

The mystery ensues...

The unfortunate death of the teacher has however led to countless movies being filmed based on her story.





Basically you EDIOT. i m asking u to watch another horror show with me. hahaahahahh.

cool rite
the whole MySTERy i set up for u hahahahahaha

haha sweet anime song

I have words in my heart i want to send to you,
SECRET ROMANCE.
In front of me is someone whom i dun want to disappear,
MYSTERIOUS DISTANCE.
I can't stand to see someone get hurt anymore

YEAHHHHH
I wanna be your knight (I want to become strong)
I wanna be your light, more than now (much more than now)

One day, we will exchange a 100% smile with each other





(quite badly translated i tink, but u get the geez of it)

blogging spree

argh

on a blogging spree

so too mani thoughts whirling back and forth
i want to pen them down
anchor them
stop swirling around in my head



and you.




can't.

get.


u.



out.



of.



my.





head.






help.

cool

dreamt of ppl of ages past

ppl i thot i have forgotten
ppl who were part of my life...a long time ago






interesting
wonder wat it hints of

digging up the past like that

FISH

Comparative genomic hybridization

gone

gone are the hopes


the curse of knowledge
the futility of precognition


shud u try?
but failure only comes after u try


a world of possiblities
a world of luck?



intelligence. blessing or bane?


to be able to see thru everyone
a very painful way to live
knowing how imperfect the world is
or rather.how imperfect humanity is.

humanity is flawed.
not entirely its fault
circumstances forced such a route for its evolution

of coz there will be some saving grace

but the imperfection.overwhelmed the few perfections that were.



how interesting. the perfections that exist
are rarely human.

the rainbow after the rain
the smell of freshness after the rain
the way the whole world is reinvigorated by it



u know i always like the way rain drops roll off the leaf after the rain
den it forms this teardrop that hangs from the tip of the leaf, hanging on for its dear life
defying gravity,
defying destiny.




when they attempt to simulate the world using supercomputers
its like breaking down the world into a program being run on a OS

that makes u wonder doesnt it
are we realli just programs running on a pre-written set of rules
a program running on a OS
written with a programming language, the Word of God



it also makes u wonder
the moment the simulation of the world is perfect
which then, will be the real world?
coz u won't be able to tell anymore

the simulation is perfect

the simulacrum becomes the original





totally fascinating

From Gundam Seed: StarGazer

look up and move on

because u will become jealous or frightened if u look to ur sides or below