shit dam gay

shit i realise i m quite gay

everytime i stay over at weikeong's place
i always sleep with him on his sister's queen size bed.

-_-"

dots

ok i m back

hahahh
after one night of rest
feel so good now

so here i m
back to blogging

i realise i m in nid of a soul mate
as in someone i can share everything with
bitch, whine, kao bei, laugh, joke and do everything with

its not that i dun have
but my good soulmates are all in the friggin army

those bastards took them away

so in this YONG LOO LIN SCH OF FrIGgIN MEDICINE
all i have is me myself and....myself

bleaghz la

i miss my bb pals

shit la
haven't organise an outing for dam long
nid an outing

shit la

og also nid outing

jc frenz also nid outing

so mani outings
so little time
and so little money

wah lao




anywayz
i tink she is very cute
shit die liao laaaaaaa
i dun wanna fall for someone so fast
basket
what happened to the resolution i make
shit la
fren only, fren only
not any further

but shit...she was blardy cute laaaaaa
and i like her blardy lame humourrrrr
shittttttttttttttttt

she's a friggin thief
stealing my heart from right under my nose

basket
i shud be heartless
den got no heart to be stolen
hahah

but i have dis sneaky feeling
she's outta my league

but screw it
WHACK AR

haahz

its 4.45am hahaha
i tink i am mad

i shudnt drink alcohol
or rather
i shud drink enuf to make me tired

drinking too little juz makes me high enuf to feel super energetic
quite ironic rite
alcohol making me energetic

went brewerkz at riverside point
man that place is AWESOME
we ordered a beer tower
which is dis friggin tall cyclinder
with a tap a the bottom
for u to pour our ur beer urself
its friggin cool man
but its cheap and expensive at the same time
depending on which time slot u buy it from

its
50 if u get before 9pm
75 if u get after 9pm

man the food was great

haiz

but too bad i had to miss out on the medicine faculty thingy at jubilee hall
bleaghz

actually its not realli the musical dat i feel sad abt
but the opportunities lost....

was told she looked stunning

bleaghz.

i wished i could be there too
to show that i could match up to her classiness

hahaaha

was quite dressed up myself...thot we gonna do something big after brewerkz
guess it was not to be den..


pui. allen sux. keep picking the wrong days to fly awy


on the other hand, he picks the right days to play frisbee =)

hahahah paiseh if u can't understand my ramblings
its like almost 5am
can't realli tink coherent
i tink i no nid to bother to sleep liao
so few hours of night left
lol

shit shit cannot continue liao
will continue soon

lets see

hey

i tink i m burnt out

bleaghz

i m like chionging everyday since medicamp

wah lao
i nid a break.

i nid some timeout
pamper myself

bleaghz bleaghz

things have happened that have shaken my confidence
sigh

it then got loose and fell off me entirely

so if anyone picks up A Confidence
please pass it back to me
thank you

i m sorry

"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

i m sorry.
i realli m not a perfect person.
i wish i could be a better boyfriend.
but i find dat it was the best i could do

now dat ur flying off
i dun know when i will see u again
fate were never too kind to us

initially i din realli wanna send u off.
coz i realli dun wanna cause u anymore pain
coz i noe the pain of things that were almost, but could never be

"And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away"

the past few weeks
i plunged headlong into activities
to forget everything
and for a moment. it seemed to work

but it will always creep back onto me
all the things dat could never be
and all the things dat shud never have been

deep inside me is so much guilt
destroying me from within
i try to build up barriers
but everytime i see your friends...
they will juz crumble
and memories of u come back through

of the pain i caused u

u know why i always din like u to cry?
coz the pain it costs me is more den dat u feel
this pain is different
its not guilt
guilt is drilled into us by social conditioning
but this pain
this pain is much more basic

it stems from the innate unwillingness to hurt others

i know the very sight of me
will inevitably start the whole cycle of hurt in u
dat is why i avoided u

i dun like to see a girl cry
especially if its because of me

i am really sorry.

i do hope u will enjoy urself in australia
and forget abt me
get someone better

by the time u read this. u shud be over there already
i hope u will realli realli enjoy urself over there

dun let dis shadow haunt u

well
if its any consolation
i have learned a lot
in the past 2 yrs

and i have so much to thank you for

thank you so much for returning me to the man i may and could be
for lifting me up from the bottom of the pit
for helping me get back my self-confidence
for reaffirming that i am something in this world

i walked out of depression
but you were the one who flew me to the stars and sat me on the highest one

i guess all the future accomplishments dat i will and can ever have, would not have been achieveable if not for you appearing in my life

you healed the wound in me
and saved my life from damnation

thankyou.

may our paths cross again. =)

hey hey its been a while

heyo

hahaaahah
super cock la
i promised to blog more frequently
but end up procastinating
ahahahha

life as a disruptee....is fattening
hahaha

kinda miss the harsh workouts at the army
coz it gives me the passport to binge at weekends
hahahah

thats like the only part of army life i miss
binging at weekends
binging in bunk with all the bunkmates
daily cup noodles party
hahaha

have i told u?
when i was in sispec echo
i was rubbish ic for a while
hahah

dammit man

every morning clear rubbish
the rubbish is filled to the brim
with JUNK FOOD hahahah
siao liao
sispec is realli quite mad
snack like mad

but thoroughly enjoyable man

so much great section camaraderie is cultivated over cup noodles
hahahah

i tink
the concept of NS
will realli take off when everyone doesnt have to stay in
coz personally
i dun mind training so hard...if i get to go home at the end of the day
but well
shrug
might as well wait for the cow to come home
hahahaha

army is realli full of weird phrases
haha
its like a durian
so obnoxious to some ppl
but so full of flavour

hahah
well at least dey got a part of the army right
everyone juz gel so well together in the army
under the common hardship

shrug

mmm
wtf man
why m i toking abt the army so much man

been voyeurish the past few days
hahahah
surfing.........BLOGS
hahahah
the singapore blogosphere is truly amazing
there's a few realli great writers out there
mrbrown and miyagi rox

hah.

xiaxue is well. juz bimboish.
well. put it simply. her daily concerns are so not the same as so many ppl
hahahahah

shrug

kinda getting sian of her lengthy posts
the written kind...
recently she launched into tons of angsty post
attacking certain ppl or certain ideogies.
and its farking sian
coz u know. she's juz so not good at being convincing.
tells u abit abt her. ahem. iq.
but shrug
who am i to argue rite
i may turn out to be more stupid den her.
after all.

SHE IS FROM MENSA
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

hilarious man.

guess dats all i m gonna say today

long posts juz make blogs so boring